May 15 - Hope you all are having a great week! My back was acting up today but it didn't stop me from having my cuckold wimp slave hubby phone Tyler and arrange a date for me to go out on with him and fuck him silly! I do love making my slave husband call my boyfriends and arrange dates, there is something SO EROTIC about that. Part of it is that he lives chastised and is not allowed inside my pussy while I get to enjoy as many different cocks as I choose. But I have to tell you it really has had a huge impact on my stress reduction being able to go out and be away from kids, family, house, work etc and do nothing but spend the night talking and having dinner with a hot guy, then undressing each other and spending a few much needed hours kissing, having him caress and play with my tits and then fuck my pussy silly. Believe me as a woman, I enjoy more then words can say having a fat cock fuck me while my slave husband knows fully what I am out doing! (huge evil grin) Mmmmm that is so erotic and kinky that it drives me wild (an even bigger evil grin LOL) I just love having a boyfriend whom I only have a sex relationship and friendship with... great cock, great fun, great times and none of the bull shit hassles of the rest of life. I can get together with him, have amazing sex, fully unwind, vent about my family, bull shit with kids sports, schools etc, and have him listen to me bitch about my slave and how he pissed me off LOL and a boyfriend listens to me vent, all without all the baggage that you have with his within a marriage. With your spouse... sure you vent, and my slave listens well, but all it ultimately does is go in a vicious circle adding more stress etc as it just gets you both more irritated and keyed up about what ever the subject is, so ultimately talking with my slave husband does not always give the needed result that I can get talking with a boyfriend! Having a hot boyfriend is a much needed outlet! I love having my marriage even if it is a cuckold FEMDOM marriage, and I will never leave it or end it as I love my slave for what he is ... a slave and I accept him only as a slave; but I can also want to enjoy and be with other men as an important and enjoyable part of my life. When I got home on Saturday night, on schedule my little wimp cuckold was naked with his collar on at the door when I arrived and I had him lift my leather skirt up and told him to slide down my panties so he could see what I was up to tonight! Once again he found my pussy sticky and my panties saturated with sperm LOL and I looked down at him and asked him if it made him happy that his wife got to go out for dinner with her boyfriend and then be fucked right all night while he was left at home chastised. He nodded and said, "Yes Mistress it does, I am glad that you get the sex and pleasure you deserve because I know I am too inadequate to do it for you and plus I am a slave and I do not ever deserve sexual pleasure or access to your Goddess body" I told him I could not agree more and I really to truly wish I denied him my pussy YEARS AGO! I asked him is he liked knowing besides fucking other men that I really enjoy kissing and having other men's tongues in my mouth and feeling their hands exploring my body and that yes that really makes me melt! Again he smiled and said "Yes Mistress it makes me happy that you enjoy that, you deserve the excitement, and you deserve to have other men that can sexually and romantically do what I have no right to do nor do I deserve to do, I accept my mouth is a toilet for you and they deserve to kiss you while my disgusting mouth does not, only kissing your feet or hand only is proper. I now know your body is best off limits to me so now I can serve you without distraction." I smiled and fully agreed as I was thinking back to kissing with Tyler as he fingered my pussy! How hot is was and how wonderful and less stressed I feel now when I get back home! So look at this, in a cuckold FEMDOM relationship like ours, my slave husband used to continually drive me nuts and frustrate me with his attitude... now I get treated by him constantly with respect and do not have any of the annoying "mood or attitude drops" from him that he used to put me through when I foolishly allowed him sex or to cum. Believe me it fucking drove me nuts. Bad enough he was a compulsive masturbator and I had to deal with that disgusting reality that sickened me, and disturbed me that he was a wimp to this pathetic degree. I was stupid to miss all the dried sperm puddles under his desk chair LOL. But when I let him enjoy my pussy or I would suck on his tiny cock for him, he always made me fucking well regret it! His attitude would change... often instantly. Now that he lives denied my pussy and is not allowed to touch my tits, his attitude is so dramatically improved and constantly better. I have found too, that as a slave, the meaner I treat him, the crueler I am to him, the more I hurt and punish me.... the more he strives to please me and the better slave he is! Go figure, but it is true, the more I kick the shit out of him, the more it improves his attitude, demeanor and happiness. If I am nice to him even one little bit, he regresses. This is obvious to see! So from here out, I do not plan on ever treating him nice. For years I was a fool and treated him to nice and he took advantage of this and I would suffer and live aggravated. Now I have woken up and he will really learn what a bitch is and face it, he is a slave which means he is nothing but disgusting... fucking... shit to me LOL! Remember tonight is cam night!!! I hope for those of you who are new to the site you will be able to join me on cam!! I usually have a big crowd in there with me so if you are there please let me know!!! I love having some special time with my members! See you all tonight and let me know if you want me to whip and torture my slaves cock, balls or ass tonight or should I make him drink piss... or maybe I should just get my pussy fucked silly by a nice fat cock... cum on and let me know as you help me decide!!